Take my hand, we're off to NeverNever Land.

25.12.04

for formality's sake, merry xmas!

fresh from recluse 05:47 [+]

Im glad i caught the re-run of Godfather on tv again. the appeal it has on me simply grows the more i watch it. anyway, jervis' tmr, then lenn's. hope it'll be fun. looking forward more to church (yes i didnt type this wrongly) and the family thingy on xmas day itself though. time to play with the babies of the household.



Now now this aint for you so dont get any wrong ideas into yr head...

Well I know we just met yesterday
But things feel oh so right
Cause you always know just what to say
And what is on my mind
Well I feel I need a special way
To ask you to be mine
But I dont know when's the perfect day
Or whats the perfect time

Babe you leave me confused
Dont know if I should let you know or wait it out girl
Wish I knew just what to do
Im so confused

So girl what you wanna see
Wanna see me get down on my knees
Wanna hear me begging baby please
Wanna hear me crying for mercy
Oh girl I wish I knew your world
I think im losing my head over you

Every bone in my body says I want you tonight
Pretty little hunny, why you there by my side
With your Halle Berry face and you Beyonce thighs
With you Juxci want to collide
Bump all night long with you sexy little waist
Come girl, come along, wanna make love to you from dusk till dawn

Well I know that it maybe too soon to know just what you'd like
But I wanna know what you've been thru, what you want from life
Its so real the way I feel so true, its been so hard to find
Wanna know how you feel for me too, so I can make up my mind

Babe you leave me confused
Dont know if I should let you know or wait it out girl
Wish I knew just what to do
I'm so confused

Well someone once told me that you'd end up lonely
Dont let love ever pass you by
Coz I've seen it happen to people that mattered to me with my very own eyes
Maybe they were mistaken
And I should be waiting, for you to show me a sign
Or should I just let you know that if I let you go,
I'd wonder the rest of my life

So girl what you wanna see
Wanna see me get down on my knees
Wanna hear me begging baby please
Wanna hear me crying for mercy
Oh girl I wish I knew your world
I think im losing my head over you

To be or not to be, that is the question
I dont know what to do
Im in a state of confusion
All I want from you is your love and affection
Is this love real or just an illusion?

fresh from recluse 10:34 [+]

we slog like fucking dogs by day only to live like kings by night. is it worth it at all? would you trade this all in return for the control you used to have over your life? tell me when you can. i'll be the first.

fresh from recluse 13:44 [+]

a million fucks wont do the trick. this anger within me wells up with every crawling day, snowballs into this huge pit of flames. the frustration hits me from all sides too quick to even know where it's comin from. aint gonna waste no time trying to find out anyway. as i said, a million fucks wont do the trick.

fresh from recluse 09:10 [+]

So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade
Your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?

The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

Pink Floyd

fresh from recluse 07:14 [+]

battleking photos are up... link's on the left.

fresh from recluse 11:37 [+]

coming back from thailand has made me come to a realisation of sorts. some of my past fears and worries have proved to be unfounded, but the scary thing is that those that continue to linger and haunt me seem to have grown even bigger than before.

fresh from recluse 22:14 [+]

thought i saw a familiar face last night but i could be mistaken. the usual bobbing of her hair as she moved. the trademark half smile so prominent from the side view. and of course, it was because i saw that irritating ex-classmate of hers that made me suspect she was who she was. but i doubt she is la. no one saw nobody. so maybe i was seeing things. or maybe what my friend said was really true, that i been missing her too much. NAH. i doubt it la seriously. dang, seeing the ferris wheel today sure brought back some of them memories. how little (not to mention stagnant) of those we had, so much so that after more than 700 days these are still the only times i can recall. oh well, doesnt bother me now.

fresh from recluse 03:26 [+]