Take my hand, we're off to NeverNever Land.

22.1.04

ru2 guo3 mei2 you3 yu4 jian4 ni3
wo3 jiang1 hui4 shi4 zai4 na2 li3
ri4 zi4 guo4 de1 zen3 me4 yang4
ren1 sheng1 shi4 fou3 yao4 zhen1 xi1
ye2 xu3 ren4 shi4 mou3 yi1 ren2
guo4 zhe4 ping2 fan2 de ri4 zi3
bu4 zhi dao4 hui4 bu4 hui4
ye2 you3 ai4 qing2 tian1 ru2 mi4

ren2 shi1 guang1 cong1 cong1 liu2 qu4
wo2 zhi3 zai4 hu1 ni3
xin1 gan1 qing2 yuan4 gan2 ran3 ni3 de qi4 xi1
ren2 sheng1 ji3 he2 neng2 gou4 de2 dao4 zhi1 ji3
shi1 qu4 sheng1 ming4 de li4 liang4 ye3 bu4 ke3 xi1
suo2 yi3 wo3 qiu2 qiu2 ni3
bie2 rang4 wo3 li2 kai1 ni3
chu2 le4 ni3
wo3 bu4 neng2 gan3 dao4 yi4 si1 si1 qing2 yi4

ru2 guo3 you3 na4 me4 yi4 tian1
ni3 shuo1 ji2 jiang1 yao4 li2 qu4
wo3 hui4 mi2 shi1 wo3 zi4 ji3
zou3 ru4 wu2 bian1 ren2 hai3 li3
bu4 yao4 shen3 me4 nuo4 yan2
zhi3 yao4 tian1 tian1 zai4 yi4 qi3
wo3 bu4 neng2 zhi3 yi1 kao4
pian4 pian4 hui2 yi4 huo2 xia4 qu4

ren2 shi1 guang1 cong1 cong1 liu2 qu4
wo2 zhi3 zai4 hu1 ni3
xin1 gan1 qing2 yuan4 gan2 ran3 ni3 de qi4 xi1
ren2 sheng1 ji3 he2 neng2 gou4 de2 dao4 zhi1 ji3
shi1 qu4 sheng1 ming4 de li4 liang4 ye3 bu4 ke3 xi1
suo2 yi3 wo3 qiu2 qiu2 ni3
bie2 rang4 wo3 li2 kai1 ni3
chu2 le4 ni3
wo3 bu4 neng2 gan3 dao4 yi4 si1 si1 qing2 yi4

fresh from recluse 22:23 [+]

i'll be enlisting in a few hrs time. some ppl asked if im excited, i wonder why i shld feel this way. others asked if i feel sad, abt losing both my hair and my freedom, im not in the least bit bothered by those as well. in fact they're my last considerations. i guess im feeling... sian. mock my lack of better vocab but thats like the most apt word for me right now. doesnt say much but yeah. so bye all for now. talk to y'all soon.

TALK to me softly
there's something in your eyes
don't hang your head in sorrow
and please don't cry
i know how you feel inside i've
i've been here before
something is changin' inside you
and don't you know
Don't you cry tonight
don't you cry tonight
don't you cry tonight
there's a heaven above you baby
and don't you cry tonight.

A HUNDRED days have made me older
since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there’s only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that this gets better as we go.

WHEN you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me.

fresh from recluse 12:55 [+]

my bedroom

when i see the pool cue lying idly in its velvet case in that corner of the room, im reminded of a beautiful friendship that sadly, went the wrong way around.

when i see the posters on the wall, im reminded of an impossible utopia i secretly bear hope for, of a film that im deeply affected by, and of my love for soccer, and much more.

when i see the framed picture of a certain Class 4J 2001 on my study table, im reminded of the best 4 years of my life.

when i see the empty liquor bottles on display all around the room, im reminded of the many nights of comraderie, merry-making and even drunken tearful moping i've shared with many a close friend.

when i see the remaining tub of hair wax on the table in front of the mirror im reminded of the fact that i very soon won't need it anymore.

when i see the metallic xmas star hanging by the window im reminded of the post O-level xmas, it was a "gift" from the Paragon decorations.

when i see the old rj timetable still pinned on the corkboard, with the sch badge pinned alongside it, im reminded of how raffles has affected and influenced me in these recent years. sounds corny, but yeah.

and when i see the simple words printed on paper stuck on my cabinet, im reminded of how choice, personal choice, can play such a pivotal role in deciding how one lives life out the way he does. amd of course, im reminded how at times personal choice may not be in fact be one of the choices. but im rambling.

standing at the threshold of a new, impending era. where do we go from here?

fresh from recluse 10:35 [+]

i had a lot of fun last night. thanks you guys.

fresh from recluse 12:53 [+]

go shorty it's my birthday
we gon' party like it's my birthday
we gon' sip bacardi like it's my birthday

that was yesterday though. now that im 19 im feeling that age is catching up w me all over again. didnt get to sip no bacardi but i've had my more than fair share of alcohol at zouk. i have to reiterate that zouk mambo night is the best there is. i mean rnb remains my number 1 passion but when im at zouk, mambo takes the crown for the time being. and that reminds me, last night was my last mambo night before i set sail overseas for my beach holiday at tekong. can u hear the calling already?!?

i guess it was a gd bday w most of my friends present. being the birthday boy is good. i got ppl from all over buying me drinks. even some i didnt knew! the damage thus far... i had tequila shots, sex on the beach, vodka green tea (by the jugs!), malibu (by the jugs too!), and lotsa beer.

an apt closure to the madness of the impending enlistment? i dont know man. i just wish my birthdays would be this good every year, and not in the alcohol sense.

i should be so lucky. Lucky, lucky, lucky (minus the hand signs of course). mambo revellers will know what i mean =)

fresh from recluse 04:45 [+]

it's exciting when the new year comes isn't it? we get so hyped up abt the prospects that come along as the last digit on the calendar skips up by 1, for me as well i suppose. more so in my case cos my birthday happens very early in the year, and i often self evaluate a lot during this period of time. i initially wanted to do a "2003: YEAR IN RETROSPECT" but my memory fails me. There have been good times, and bad. I can remember those definitely. im prob echoing the thoughts of all the 18 yr old males reading this.

Last night (when it was still 2003), i zapped my ez-link card for the last time as a student. Today i am no longer a student, but a pre-enlistee. I've got no qualms abt army nor am i dreading it, it's the transitional phase im talking abt here. i can still remember my days in queenstown lutheran church, first day at nursery1 crying my balls out to my mum and aunt telling them i didnt want to go to sch. i gradyated to a soccer-mad primary sch kid that played every single day of recess, organising "Chinese vs Malays" matches. i ensure u though, no racial tensions involved. and then i went on to secondary sch. i was an idealist of sorts, but of course i knew that had to go. used to squat at the street soccer court after sec3 results worrying abt being retained. and when it came to college, it was like that. jc whizzed past me just like that. but it's been ok.

from one set of (school) uniform i suddenly find myself putting on very soon another set of uniform (green), and the fact that i can no longer pay 45cents for all my bus and train trips no longer remain a mere increase in my transport costs, but sth else.

enough of nostalgia.

happy new year y'all.

fresh from recluse 01:26 [+]